LET YOUR FREAK FLAG FLY HIGH!

I AM FUCKING PERFECT!

March 15, 2011

So...yeah...FUCK YEAH...It's been three years! And today I feel magnificently invincible. I didn't go the Y this morning. I told my mom that it just felt "wrong" not to go...but I had a million and one excuses as to why I just didnt want to go. I will spare you the list but will say most of them were related to academics. I ran four beautiful, majestic miles, outside in the fresh air and sunshine instead. I barely broke a 10 minute mile because I have been kinda lazy and not as well conditioned because of it ... But damn....the benefits and effects of running are AMAZING. How come I keep forgetting about this? Huh? Because this is something that should be done EVERY DAY. It is life changing. Run, people, run for your lives... It truly is the one tonic that cures ALL.

I thought about a lot of stuff while out there. Listened to some favorite music. It hurt. My cardiovascular system screamed in protest the whole time and I am sure I coughed up most of the organs all along Summer Street :) Pharynx, epiglottis, trachea, bronchi, lungs...blah blah blah...a nice little anatomy review :)

So, three years. I am a little bit disheartened that I am heavier this year than I have been the two previous years before. I am about 10 pounds heavier than last year. I blame the Starbucks habit for that. My weight is happy at about 140lbs give or take. I can maintain it effortlessly. It was my original goal weight. But, it really is not small enough. I have a horrible "muffin top" at this weight and I feel fat. So, again, it all comes down to choices. If I want change I have to consciously make a decision to make change. I am not there right now. I am in the "contemplative" stage I guess :) I am comfortable where I am. And I, um, REALLY like Starbucks :)

I have been very busy - mostly with school. Over the weekend I attended a midwifery workshop after meeting a sister midwife in Starbucks (of course it was Starbucks, right?). The passion is still there...even after not giving it a single thought for almost ten years. I sent an email to the senior midwife and she invited me to the class. I contemplated for a while and then decided...what the hell.

I had a beautiful time. And I decided that I want to go back. I am amazed at how much I know and how when called the information comes. I still have intentions of going to medical school....but med school applications need to stand out. And this type of study certainly WILL stand out. The learning and information I take away from it will help me practice in a more holistic way and will hopefully help to make change in the field of women's health. So, here's to the woman to woman model of care. Here's to being the change you wish to see in the world. Here's to another adventure. Here's to changing the world. :)

After all, whats another 8-10 hours of reading a week :D

I've got this.

Later.


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